un-escapable emotions

Girls always have those days when they feel like shit. When they feel like crying for the littlest or biggest things randomly during the day. When they feel so ugly no one can convince them different. When the things that they usually handle pretty calmly or reasonably are suddenly too much for them. I feel like a lot of girls I know are having a lot of these days lately. Today was difficult, to say the least. I felt kind of invisible and because of that my jokes got louder and worse, but yet more attention grabbing. I think that people probably think I try too hard sometimes to be noticed. Maybe that's true, but I am only trying not to disappear completely. All girls feel like this sometimes. We all have our different coping mechanisms and we all hide behind different things. I hide behind humour. Maybe a little too often. I just like making people happy. I want my friends to be happy, and I know how much of a downer it is to tell them everyday about all the things that I am struggling with and for them to do the same. I love listening to what my friends are going through. I love being there for them, but sometimes we need to pretend that everything is okay, and some days it is harder to pretend than others.