☂I am not watching the oscars

I am tired from all the fun times I had at kyra's house :D It is a good tired. Not the kind that is only because you did nothing to get tired.
Tomorrow is Monday. That makes me sad. The weekend passed by waaaayyyy too quickly!

I have been having one of those seriously philosophical weeks where I keep thinking about if this, meaning life, actually exists. A lot of the time I feel like I am not even in my own body. Like I am just watching my life. It is a sad way of living but I cannot stop it. The only time I feel truly alive is when I am talking to a certain person... and I know that sounds completely stupid and juvenile, but it is so true. I think I am in need of a really deep conversation with someone that I actually care about... not just some random person that happens to talk to me randomly on msn or something... that hasn't happened in a long time though... so yeah. I wish I knew what was the right thing for me to do with the rest of my life now... then I could know what to do with all the small things I have to decide on now.

My dad still has not called me. I have not talked to him now since Christmas.... he didn't even call to see if I might like to come and visit for spring break. I wish that nana and papa would invite me actually... but I am pretty sure that they are on a trip somewhere if I remember correctly right now. At least my dad is not a total screw up... but he really needs to learn how to care.

I am so tired and it is 8 o clock... I am such loser :P

yours,
a dancer.