I am quite literally stuck in my own head. I don't seem to notice the way that my friends are reacting to different things or what is going on in their lives. And this is not because I do not care about them. It is in a way because I do not want to care anymore though. I am doing that thing again where I get really close to people and then something happens and I back away because they feel too close. It is like I am claustrophobic to people knowing me too well. I never used to have this problem. I used to have a lot of different people who didn't even like me know only little bits about me. Not one or two people knowing every single detail and all the things that I am thinking. I am not sure I like being known so well because it means that... well I am not quite sure what it means, but I am scared of it. Sometimes I just want to sit my friends down and tell them everything I am thinking. But that is rare. Most of the time I just want to think threw my problems and be incredibly grumpy for a week or so.
I don't know what is happening anymore. or what to do about it.
yours,
a dancer.
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