I got a dress :)

I got a dress for my mum's wedding today :) It is really pretty. Not as fancy as another $800!!! dress I tried on but it's still super cute! Im going to get some hella sexy heels to go with it and then I will be set!
I am trying to decide if I want to wait to cut my hair or not....
I am getting really sick of my long hair.
hmmm.....

Fiercely Fabulous

Sephora's fiercely fabulous red nail polish is fantastic! It goes on in one coat... red nail polish that goes on in one coat!
It's so red.
Im in love <3 

oops!

I never did post all of the lovely clothes that I got in edmonton over spring break! lol that was like a month ago but here they are :3

☂Things I now have in my possession from the states

• lady gaga ed. of vanity fair, marie claire with mary-kate, and elle with julia roberts
• 1 gap hoodie and 1 aeropostale hoodie
• three pairs of calvin klein underwear and three wonderbras 
• 2 pairs of converse, one hightop for hiphop and the other not hightop for everyday
• one pair of gap sweatpants
• a scarf
• old navy cargo pants
• multiple white tank tops for under things
• puma shoes, nike shorts and shirt for gym
• band t shirts and one betty white t shirt :3
• strange but cool top from anthropologie and an old man sweater with ducks on it 
• 1 leather belt

It was a great weekend of shopping. The only thing that I regret not getting was a pair of pants from antropologie but it was our first stop of the trip and my mum convinced me we could find practically the same ones for cheaper. We didn't. Oh well
All in all it was fun and I got to actually get out of the house and not think about things :)

yours,
a dancer.

☂I got some really cool stuff at my first time visit to american apparel :D

two skirts, socks, and a bodysuit! I think I did pretty well :) 

I love them all haha

I am wearing the stripped skirt and bodysuit today. 

I will take pictures of the stuff on me sometime when I have time haha!

yours,

a dancer.

☂if only

My house is so stressful right now. I cannot stand it much longer. i feel like I am going to throw up sometimes because I am so worried or stressed about my parents. It is so hard. This week has been horrible. I can usually handle stress. But not this time apparently. I cannot focus. My homework is suffering because of it. I am actually handing in assignments late... it's not like me! I just can't seem to stay on task when there is always a new development. S has started drinking. My mum goes out for coffee often because she cannot handle the pressure either. My body is actually feeling the effects of the stress. I can't eat like I usually do. I am not hungry often. I know I should eat but I do not want to. S lost 15 lbs just this week because she is not eating pretty much anything at all. I am so worried for her. I need a night off. To get away. Just one would be fine. That's all I ask right now. All of the material things I want right now are just to distract me from this all. I am spending money to keep myself happy... it's sad really. None the less I am getting a camera possibly next weekend. I just want to be able to leave the house with the excuse that I am going to go experiment with my camera. I don't wish this never happened... but I do wish it was over with already. I just wanted this summer to be amazing. Because it was supposed to be.

yours,
a dancer.

☂artsy

I just got back from this exhibit the environmental design first year students put on at the university and it was really quite cool! It was all types of architecture and design but since it was first year it was not the boring models of buildings like I thought it would be. It was interactive art. I loved the atmosphere and if S didn't go with me I probably would have stayed longer and talked with the designers about their projects. The people there are my kind of people. They are all mac, artsy, stylish, and crazy about art. It makes me happy. It makes me really itch to go to university whenever I visit there. I would love to go to an exhibit put on by the fine art students. After me and S were walking back to the car and we were talking about my future and what I wanted to do with my life. She is so hard to be around sometimes especially when I am talking about my future because I want to be the starving artist type that creates beautiful things and maybe work in photography for a magazine or something cool like that but she says that I must choose something that will actually give me a living and to be realistic, but if it is something that I am willing to work for then it could be possible. I mean yes I will have to choose a back up plan. Possibly go into something that I am only half happy with so that I have something to fall back on, but my first choice is art. Anything and everything related to it.
I have no idea what I would like to do with my future and right now that is okay because I am only 15 (16 very very soon!) and I have time to figure this all out. I will probably change my mind about a million times before I figure it out but lots of people don't figure it out until university. So I think I am doing fine :)

On sunday I am going shopping with janelle and adriana for new summer clothes because I hate everything I own pretty much. I mean some of it I can work with but I need some new stuff. And i need new bras and underwear ^^ I love bra shopping haha
I am strange
i know
:D

yours,
a dancer.

☂I seriously need to bring home my camera tomorrow from school!

I am not only having ideas for my art but also for photography! And I have left my camera in my locker at school since before spring break! I seriously need a new one too! I have scrapped the idea of possibly getting a new ipod because I really do not need one. I barely use the one I have anymore because I just use my laptop to listen to music! I think I will bring my laptop with my when I go to my dad's and nana's maybe this summer, instead of my ipod haha! Although I am sure my nana would not be happy that it now has a dent in it :( But it is only small. And it does not actually effect the computer... so it's all good :) I barely notice it anymore!
But this camera! I should start researching what is out there because I really want a decent one! I do not want something that I cannot customize to my needs.

yours,
a dancer.

p.s. this was completely me procrastinating doing homework :D

☂Ipod

So I have decided that I really want a new ipod. I would also like a camera but as of now I don't use the one I have all that often so yeah... but that's probably because it is a piece of shit. I really want an ipod classic. Has a ton of memory and it's kick ass cool. Like look at it:

It's around 250$ though and I don't know if I am willing or not to get it:\ I mean I want it but I really want to save up for my trips through school. I will be getting a job this summer though so that could make up for it. And I haven't bought something for myself in forever. God it has been a while! I usually just buy things for other people and ask for the things I really want for christmas. Not that I always get them. I would also like some new software for my computer but that is not necessary. It is just a luxury. 

I should go do homework... like I said I would. But have obviously not been doing. oh crap dance

never mind

I will have to do it when I get home :\

yours,

a dancer.

☂Future bedroom

Must haves:

1. A display case of really interesting butterflies to hang on my wall. It doesn't have to be too big, but I either want three cases of single butterflies, or one case of like 4 or 5.

2. A mural that I have to design for my bedroom wall... I need some ideas for that!
3. A really cool low dresser.
4. matching other furniture.
5. cool nik naks!
6. lots of art to hang on the walls courtesy of me:P

I am sure I will think of more!

yours,
a dancer.

☂girl guide cookies are deadly!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ... to the ground!
(by the way I am a rapist):P
wow if someone were to stumble upon my blog this would be the first thing they would read! ahhhh how I love private jokes!

I have been OD-ing on girl guide cookies for the last week... it's been amazing!
So sketchbook is due tomorrow..... guess who only has two things??? One of them being really quite good and the other... is... well... crap! It's done with water colour pencils, and it's pretty much just me experimenting!
I am watching grey's right now because it is that time of night on a thursday! and what else would I do!
I <3 Grey's!!!!!!!!!

Jazz is in the Philippines... I am so jealous! I want to go shopping in huge metropolis' that are air conditioned too intensely! I love asian clothes! Sometimes i think I was born to be asian... I mean really. I love anime. I love asian clothes. I love asians...! haha I think that's all I got... But still. me + asian-ness would be all the better!

anyways...
I am going to the thanksgiving fam jam at jer's! Should be epic to say the least!

I really have to watch my grades more this year. I actually have to try to get good marks... it's a change from what I am used to! I feel bad for the girls that started this year because it must be even harder... since our school is like ahead of public schools in grade 10.

yours,
a dancer.

☂Clothes... can't get enough

I have fallen in love with korean clothing styles! Not much different than ours but they just seem to do it that much better! All the clothing is so pretty! and I have also been wishing that they had an Anthropologie in canada! It's not korean but I still love it haha! I LOVE that store! But I only have one pair of pants from there:( Cocobonny and BangBang are the two korean ones.

Anthropologie

Cocobonny

BangBang

Cocobonny doesn't let you copy their pictures so the ones I have are from another site but still the same brand. If you want to see more cocobonny then click on the link to go to their site. I think that when I actually get a job I will live in anthropologie and i might even have to buy some stuff online from coco and bangbang:P ... although I might have to get jenny to help me with bangbang because all of the information is in korean:P It's all so expensive though haha! That's why I need a job! yours, a dancer.

☂wow

I am already bored..... i finished school yesterday
i am really bad at entertaining myself
actually that's not true
I am just too lazy to start drawing something that I am planning to. haha
And I still don't know exactly what house alexis's is...
haha
i need to stalk her so that I can crash her pool:P
she will totally wake up and find me in her pool. haha creepy!

At least I am watching ellen. That always is a good time. But it's old. I think that shows should keep filming during the summer. It would make life so much better. although then it would cut into my get fit for competitive dance next year. YES I DID GET IN! haha
I am so excited!

1. I get the awesome choreography that the teachers don't just think up on the spot. They have a story line!
2. I get to wear the kick ass costumes:P
3. I get to go to different places to compete. as long as we can afford it:S
4. I get to make friends with some of the originals whom I look up to!
5. there are no more reasons but i like making lists ^_^

ooo sex and the city is on! even though last summer I watched practically all of them religiously! This show never gets old!
I LOVE BIG!
he is kinda an ass sometimes
but he is sure hot:P

i miss you already:)
I was shoe shopping for the wedding today at the mall. and we were going from store to store and all I could think of was me and him walked this way. And went in this store^_^


yours,
a dancer.