☂6 Months

Happy anniversary love:)
6 months today we went to the movies with two of our great friends and i put my head on your shoulder:P
Best 6 months of my life:)

LOVE YOU!

yours,
a dancer.

☂possible?

Is it possible to miss a person a thousand times more when you have spent hours with them right after they leave, than when you haven't seen them in weeks?
I say the answer to this question is yes.
Most definitely yes.
The most amazing day.
I am extravagantly happy but sad that he had to leave.
I love that he gets along with my parents well.

love.
i love him.
to the moon and back.

yours,
a dancer.

☂Thanksgiving dinner

Last night I went to thanksgiving dinner at jer's aunt and uncle's place. The family is so nice! I love them haha! It's also amusing at all of the insults that are flung around the room... many at jeremy:P
The food was awesome! OMG GREEK SALADE!!! it was epic! and so was the pumpkin pie! mmmmmmm
His family is not as loud as mine though. I was surprised haha. His cousins all seemed nice. The adults didn't really talk to me that much:P I was quieter than normal too... but that's just because I didn't know them all that well. I will warm up to them eventually... and then they will be sorry:P
haha
no
but maybe
:P
On the way home we got frosty like things from McDonalds. They were yummy:)
and then when we got back to my house he walked me to the door to say goodnight^_^ so cute! haha

yours,
a dancer.

☂change

So many things are changing in my world. My friend's lives. Mine.
I mean some of us, me included, have serious relationships. I mean what is that? When did that happen? Seems like just yesterday that we were all sitting in a circle hearing the stories from the one of us at the time that had a boyfriend, it didn't last all that long unfortunately, but we were still all entertained at the time by the stories! We were all dreaming about having that. Maybe even something better than it. And now some of us have it! How weird is that????
We are not grown up. We don't try to be. But we are actually thinking about someone else for once. How will they feel if we do this? Or how can I make them smile today? I love that Ish is so happy with ben! It is the cutest thing!
Even my friends that do not have boyfriends, they are different. No longer the ones who judge each other and who spread the rumors. Some of them never did this, but the ones that did don't anymore. For whatever reason. Or maybe there is just no gossip that interests them anymore:P Which is entirely possible! Even I used to gossip about certain things. But now, I am being a better friend. Not telling anyone anything that they do not need to know. Including things about myself.

My dad called a few nights ago... or should i say that he got my sister to call so that he didn't have to talk to my mother yet again... I mean it's not like she is going to bitch him out on the phone! She is not that kind of person. She is decent. He is scared of her... and I don't know why. At least he called this time... but still... when was the last time he called? um let's think. O yes I called them at my brother's bday. I don't think he has actually called here since summer.
What does it feel like to have a dad that is there for you? Please someone tell me! Because I have no fucking clue! And I don't think that I ever have. I used to think that he was there for me, he wasn't. He was there when it was convenient... for my step mother(monster). I hope that when I get married I can at least see what it is like for my children. I would hate for my father to be repeated in my husband, but I really doubt that that will happen. I stay away from anyone that reminds me of my father... and the one I am with now will be a great father, whether it is of my children, or of some other lucky woman's... because you never know and things could happen. I just hope those things dont happen.
At least I have the best mother a girl could ask for! Well I have the best two mothers anyone could ask for!
I complain a lot about my father, but it could be worse, and I tell myself that all of the time. But sometimes I just think, is it harder to have it within your grasp (a good father) than to never even have the chance? The constant torture? yes? no? I think the answer is probably no. I am too good at talking myself out of things. Out of the thinking I am bad off. Out of thinking I hate my father. Why is it so hard to be mad at him when i have no problem being pissed at my friends?

Life is complicated.

yours,
a dancer.

☂My dear

I love you.

yours,
a dancer.

☂Today and tomorrow:)

Today at lunch the man came to see me cause he was off school today:) He is coming again tomorrow! Cause he also has tomorrow off:) I have a half day on wednesday but i cant do anything cause mom cant drive me anywhere cause of work and I have dance that night! 
I have dance tonight too! Jazz^_^ We are supposedly learning russians this class O_O <--- me scared shitless! 
haha
This class is for sure challenging! 
I still have to memorize the 50 states and their capitals by friday.... I have maybe 15 memorized... me = screwed! But I will work on it! 
There are some games I have been playin on addicting games:) they are annoying but i guess they will help me know where the states are:P


yours,
a dancer.

☂homecoming!

Tomorrow is the big homecoming games! I am excited! and so many of my friends are going! It will be a great time! as well as all of the boys:P aka my man:P 
i will see tons of ppl there! and maybe even meet some new ppl! always a fun time!


I am watching say yes to the dress over and over again:P
love this show!
it can be so amusing! 
I love all of the beautiful dresses:)


yours,
a dancer.

☂Awesome day had by all:)

Today we (jeremy, his mom, her friend, and i) went to two little towns outside the city, one of them on the lake (not mentioning names of the towns for stalker purposes:P). It was soooo fun! We got ice cream and visited some of his fam. and i met some family friends. The beaches are so pretty! and the pier! It was really cool! I can't believe I have lived here 5 years and I still hadn't been to these places! Jer's mom is so nice! I got along with her so well! I think my parents liked her too. 


Tomorrow I am babysitting for the neighbors. The one of the little boys needs his one year shot so I am babysitting the older one. The only sucky thing is that it is so early in the morning! My days of sleeping in are over:( sadness! School is starting soon... which sucks/rocks!!! I miss everyone!!!!!!!!! ISH<3 


yours,
a dancer.

☂My weekend of fun-ness!

Yesterday I kept jer company while he was selling raffel tickets around my neighborhood:) And he met my parents who LOVED him:) It was great!
And today I have two bday parties to go to! haha. Our neighbor's brother's little boy is turning one i think it is and so they are having a party! And since I have been like adopted into their family I get to go:P and then Ish is having a bday party:) Can't wait to see everyone!!! It's been way too long!!!!!

yours,
a dancer.

☂the list was completed:)

Well not quite yet... I still have some sitting on my ass time to complete:P

I got my nails done today! They painted pretty designs on my toes! haha and they match my shoes which rocks! I must say that it is harder to type fast with my nails all perfect... because of fear of wreaking them:P It is nice to be pampered! I was born to be a princess!!!!!!

(watching sex and the city)!

We leave for ottawa tomorrow.

of course jeremy's comp has to be on the fritz my last night in the city pretty much for a month!!! ARG!!

i am hungry... even though i just ate soup. i will eat in a few. again.

yours,
a dancer.

☂An amazing day:)

Today was possible the most fun I have had ever haha. It is so much fun just to lie in his arms and to see him smile. It is amazing.
It is going to be hard to be away from him for so long.

yours,
a dancer.

☂husnjrishsnmfniahsf OMG

Today = best day of my life!

1. I saw him<3
2. He was so cute!
3. We hung out for hours.

and I guess that's it haha.
but WOW
^_^
so much fun!
I can't wait to see him again
gawd i wish he lived closer!
But I guess we can do what we did today more often. That is if his mom's cool with it.

yours,
(more like his)
a dancer.

☂pmsing all over my blog

So I admit that I was totally pms-ing all over my blog yesterday... looking back it's actually kinda funny. I meant all that I said just I said it in a more bipolar way than usual. 

So yet again I woke up this morning and had to pull weeds. It was the least enjoyable experience of my life... no that's a lie. But it was not fun! 

Before school ended I couldn't wait for it to end because I thought it was going to be the funnest summer ever! But now it's just like ever other summer. haha. Sitting around. Reading. Riding my bike every once and a while. And not seeing my friends as often as I want:( I guess I might actually want to make plans in order to see them....

I am actually so excited for the wedding in august. I mean none of us are excited for it because of who he is marrying but I am excited to see my brother (in a way) and my other brother (haha kindof). They have been adopted by me:P

Although I would probably marry chris if he was my age. He is brilliant! 

I really want to see some of the new movies... arg. NO WAIT! I want to see slumdog millionaire! But I am not allowed to watch that movie because SOMEONE wants to watch it with me...

anyone know if will's party is still happening?

yours,

a dancer.

☂traveling is in my future...

I went on one of my traveling rants again. haha. i guess I wouldn't call it exactly a rant. Just a fit of excitement filled with girlie spazzes and and yearning for the future! It was with jeremy. haha. I don't think he knows just what he's gotten himself into:P I started talking about this couple my family are kinda related to I don't remember how but w.e. He works at the art gallery as the official photographer and she works the gift shop there. They are always traveling and they have like the perfect life! On their last trip they went to Egypt! and then I started listing places that I want to go. haha. everything from Singapore to Romania. haha. I want to go! EVERYWHERE! The problem is that if I want to have kids then that kind of lifestyle is impossible:( I am sad but I am thinking and yes haha I do think of these things! that i will travel a lot when I am younger and then settle down and then take the kids to travel when they are like 11. or maybe even younger. but i think I would be happy just not to live in canada. I mean it's a wonderful country! but I want to live somewhere that is more artsy. Somewhere that is more appropriate to what I want to do with my life. I WANT SOME ADVENTURE!!!!! yours, a dancer.

☂Our Birthday Party

Me and my friend had a joint birthday party today and it went really well. We raised $310 for breast cancer research instead of having people buy us gifts. We pretty much just hung out and talked and played games because our outside party was rained out. Which kind of sucked but it was still fun:) Allie and Jenny played chess for a good part of the party... haha they are such noobs:P Jeremy stopped by to give me my gift and card (which everyone read and went awwwwwww:P). I love the bracelets^_^ they are so pretty. I feel so bad for the people that were going to rotr today! Including jeremy! it was raining so hard and it was kinda chilly:( But I hope that it's still fun anyways:) Because there are some really good bands playing.  And the people that I know going are really siked about it:) I went to alex's bday party last night. It was a blast but I couldn't stay until the end because my mother is like that:( My mom also thinks that his house is alexis's house because she wouldn't have let me go if she knew it was a boy's house;P that is all for the day:) other than the fact that i am watching the exorcism of emily rose:) It is a great movie.... too bad SOME people I know will not watch it with me:( Because it's a scary movie:P yours, a dancer.

☂thinking of you

I saw jeremy at the mall today. Of course I was with my mother and couldn't run up to him and say hello. but we both saw each other. I don't know what's worse. not seeing him. or seeing him and not being able to do anything about it! BOTH ARE SO HARD!
I wish I could see him more! But with my parents that's impossible!
I can't wait until I can date! Then I can see him all I want! It will be great!


I got the most gorgeous dress and shoes for the wedding today! I will post a picture a little later:)


yours,
a dancer.

☂wow

I am already bored..... i finished school yesterday
i am really bad at entertaining myself
actually that's not true
I am just too lazy to start drawing something that I am planning to. haha
And I still don't know exactly what house alexis's is...
haha
i need to stalk her so that I can crash her pool:P
she will totally wake up and find me in her pool. haha creepy!

At least I am watching ellen. That always is a good time. But it's old. I think that shows should keep filming during the summer. It would make life so much better. although then it would cut into my get fit for competitive dance next year. YES I DID GET IN! haha
I am so excited!

1. I get the awesome choreography that the teachers don't just think up on the spot. They have a story line!
2. I get to wear the kick ass costumes:P
3. I get to go to different places to compete. as long as we can afford it:S
4. I get to make friends with some of the originals whom I look up to!
5. there are no more reasons but i like making lists ^_^

ooo sex and the city is on! even though last summer I watched practically all of them religiously! This show never gets old!
I LOVE BIG!
he is kinda an ass sometimes
but he is sure hot:P

i miss you already:)
I was shoe shopping for the wedding today at the mall. and we were going from store to store and all I could think of was me and him walked this way. And went in this store^_^


yours,
a dancer.

☂when life screws you over you lie your way out of it...

The date is going amazing we have spent a few hours hanging out and seen a movie. He made me smile and laugh and I was so happy. It is about the time that I am supposed to be picked up by my mother who knows nothing about it being a date and thinks I am seeing a movie with friends. We are just walking around the theater because I didn't see her outside yet and guess who we run into... my mother and s! While me and jer were holding hands! I quickly let go and they didn't see because there was someone in front of us. THANK GOD! So as I have said when god screws you over you lie to your parents like hell. SO! accd he is now your bf as far as my mother is concerned and you and emily were in the bathroom when I ran into my parents. The movie year one was ok. the best parts were the commercial ones. and i will tell you more about it if needed:P
I am not so sure she bought it but she hasn't said anything yet. So I am hoping and praying that she never does! GAWD I DON"T EVEN HAVE SCHOOL ANYMORE TO AVOID HER WITH! all day tomorrow i am alone with s:S

well i might be screwed
lets hope i can lie faster than usual:S

yours,
a dancer.

☂Meeting the parents

The event that strikes fear and excitement in many people's hearts when it is that time in the relationship. I am not as scared as I am excited but like what if I make a total fool of myself!

Advice?

yours,

a dancer.

☂a walk in the park

Today was one of the best days ever. I still feel bad about leaving english class and upsetting mrs. m. but I needed to leave.
Me and Jeremy went to the park with benelle:P and hung out and talked for a while and then benelle went to the other park and me and jer walked around the area and then hung out in the park for the rest of the time. It was sooooo much fun! i wish i could spend more time with him! :)
happiness.
then i couldn't concentrate in math class because i was thinking about him the whole time:)
haha it was like a whole day of him because after i came home we talked on msn and then i ate dinner and then i talked to him on the phone for an hour and a half:) it was great!
His mom wants to meet me! yay! i don't know how i will pull that off:S but i will figure something out:P
I bet she is a sweetheart just like him:)

we also talked about how we can so see benelle getting married! they are soooo cute together!

yours,
a dancer.